Do it says the voice
While arguing with common sense
I'm tired of giving piggyback rides
To the fake and unattached
The whispering, faceless ones
That didn't have my best
Interests at heart
But truly try their hardest
Smile mother fucker
So they don't know
Make them laugh
Just so I remember
What an honest one
Sounds like
You wait until you is home
Before you shows up
Did you know
I want to die sometimes
Or do you even care?
Too concerned with whispering
In my ear about death
To realize
Maybe I want
To live
You make it hard
To differentiate
Between what's real
And what's really real
Because sometimes
I don't know anymore
And that's what
You've always wanted
Separate
Tear
Blend
Lie
Sustain
Kill
Breathe
Continue
Try as you might
To tear this skin open
Somehow I'm quicker
With the stitches
But the
Real question
Is
For how long?
Who will be
The winner
And who is
The real
Loser
I know your heart
Isn't in the right
Place
Win at all costs
Is beginning
To be
Your motto
Instead of mine
With the stakes
Being nothing more
Than my life
My life
Is nothing more
To you than
A bounty
One to be added
To a list
Maybe someone will
Mourn
You've never cared
What I've thought
You've kept it all
Between you and me
Never caring
About the damage
As long as
You're heard
Remember when
You told me
To kill myself?
I think just
For fun
Because I'm
Only
A game
I'm not sure
I know how
To accept advice
From anyone
But you
Anymore
It's time
The
End
This poem is about arguing with a voice only I can hear. The back and forth. The endless games being played by one of me against me. It's exhausting and hopefully I was able to transfer that to this piece.
Thank you for reading.
I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
Ryan M Sullivan
