Quit Calling It An Episode

Have your feelings ever been explained away or not validated? Ever had a genuine reason to be mad, angry, sad-pretty much any emotion but because you're bipolar it's not valid?

I get this all the time and it frustrates me to no end. Just because I'm bipolar dis not mean that my emotions are invalid and a byproduct of it. I am allowed to cycle my emotions just like you or the next person.

I am a very blunt and honest person and I've come to believe that makes people that aren't that way uncomfortable so it's easier to explain me off than to justify what I'm saying. So though i deal with my burdens i am now expected to take yours on as well. How is that fair?

Don't get me wrong, i have family and friends that allow me to be me but it's the ones that don't that frustrate me. I admit when I'm having an 'episode' for lack of a better word but I'm also human. There's a reason my tag line is I'm NOT bipolar- I HAVE bipolar. It didn't define me as a person and it sure as hell doesn't define my emotions.

I have learned to reach out when I'm struggling. I have learned that i do have bipolar induced emotions but how unfair to put me in a category that 100% explains me away. If i feel wronged then i will voice it, if I'm sad i will voice it and guys what- has nothing to do with bipolar but everything with being human.

I don't need to be educated in how my behavior effects myself or those around me because i live it everyday. I don't need people that has zero experience being bipolar telling me what I've done wrong but maybe how I've started doing what's right. Criticism can be pretty constructive but also debilitating and counterproductive if not based in concern or for the right reasons.

Ever heard walk a mile in my shoes? Of course you have and until you experience what i do, you can keep your destructive opinions and episode naming to yourself. I'm not trying to be mean or accusatory. Why i even had to put that disclaimer in frustrates me but it's the nature of the beast.

My wish is maybe you'll sore compassion to things you don't understand and make you uncomfortable. My wish is that you'll ask yourself why that makes you uncomfortable. That maybe you'll imagine walking a mile in my shoes. My 'episode' of ranting is done. Singe of you are uncomfortable and thankful and done of you are thankful for me finally voicing my frustration- I'm here for both of you- all i ask is you be here for me as well.

I'M NOT BIPOLAR-I HAVE BIPOLAR
R. M. Sully