I Kinda Spiraled At 100 mph

It's been a slippery slope for a few weeks but i need to snap out of it and get back to what was working for me.

I fell off the wagon head first. Did it accomplish anything you ask? Absolutely nothing. It helped me feel worse about myself. It helped me feel guilty. It helped me be an asshole and shut myself off from people. So i guess it accomplished what it always has for me.

I actually started liking myself and was getting my life in order and i feel like I've torn that apart in the last few weeks. I've taken a huge step backwards but i refuse to give up. I'm not done fighting yet.

I'm going to get back to blogging and writing. I'm going to start taking pictures again. I started reading again and man i really missed that, too. I've got all the tools at my disposal but it was easier to be lazy and give in to my demons. Not anymore.

I'm not saying I'll have something on my blog everyday starting out but it'll be more often than it has been. I appreciate ask the encouragement I've received. It means a lot and has helped so thank you!

Today is a new day and a new adventure so I'm going to start enjoying it again.

I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully