The Truth Shall Set You Free

I haven't written in awhile. It's honestly hard to write an upbeat, you can do it blog right now because that's not how I'm feeling. I had taken such a huge leap forward these past couple of months that i guess the huge step backwards should've been expected.

I know this is just a bump in the road but it's not been a fun one. I've kinda lost joy in the things i was enjoying like my writing and photography. I spent the last weekend sleeping while movies played on the Xbox. I'm not sure i watched a whole movie the entire time. It just feels like existing at times.

Each day i wake up, it's basically a goal just to battle thru that day and hope the next one is better. Killing time. Kill enough time until i can sleep thru to the next day. I've had enjoyable times don't get me wrong. Evenings spent with a certain someone or hanging out with a dear friend of mine who boosts me up but also tells me what i need to hear are highlights. Seems few and far between at times.

Therapy has been going well and i look forward to it every week. I met with her yesterday and she continues to encourage decisions I've made and show me sides of things i refused to acknowledge and to get back to liking me again. I appreciate her more than i could ever express.

I know this blog today is boring but i decided if i forced myself to write then maybe tomorrow will be easier and so forth and i can get back in the swing of things. I'm going to make myself go take some pictures today as well. I think i needed some time off the radar to get things sorted out and get back into the swing of things. Time will tell.

I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully