It's Been Awhile Again

I really need to get better at this blogging thing. I've kinda been MIA and i know I said I would get better but the road to hell is paved with good intentions, right?

Things are going good. I've got a lot of positive in my life with work and a new house that i recently fell into. It's going to be quite the bachelor pad once i get it remodeled and I'm excited! I've been busting my butt to get it done but once you treat into a project like this It's hard to find a stopping point. I'm going to have to put the OCD aside and just get it livable and then fine tune it from there.

I picked up a violin from my cousin Melissa last night and played for awhile and i was shocked at how happy it made me and how i didn't suck as bad as i thought i would. I picked it up for the first time again a couple of months ago but set it back down. This time I'm looking forward to jam sessions with friends. We already have it in the works and I'm excited.

I've been struggling with personal things but who doesn't? It all boils down to perceived happiness versus actual happiness and that can be a fine line between the two. I have a good friend that told me about his 80/20 rule and it really makes sense. If you're looking to be happy with someone no matter who it is in your life 100% of the time then the expectations are at an impossible level to meet but if you are happy with that person 80% of the time then the 20% is doable. I think i need to start putting that into practice. The flip side is I'm not sure i can achieve 80% in anyone else's life so this may backfire. Well damn It.

It feels good to write again but I'm going to quit saying I'll get more consistent when i may not. Life can be a son of a bitch but if you can be happy with it 80% of the time then that other 20% can kiss my really really white butt. It's time to get positive and remove the negative. I hope everything is going good for you and maybe you took something from this rambling and maybe you didn't-that's not for me to decide. Until next time...

I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully