I’m struggling
I want
To scream
While I laugh
Out loud
Invisible tears
Flow
While I put on
My smile
Got to let
Everyone
Know
Everything is ok
Feelings go
Unheard
With no one
To listen
My mind
Battles
Hours upon hours
With no outcome
No resolve
No solution
Keep it to
Yourself
Don't be a bother
My opinion differs
From yours
So I’m not privy
To your world
Anymore
If only I mold
Myself into
Everything
Everyone
Wants me to
Be then maybe
I’ll completely
Lose who I am
If only I wasn’t me
Then maybe I’d be
Something
Worthy compared
To valuable
I’d be worth
Your time
Envious of those
You hold dear
To remember
That feeling
Of being
Important
How long
Until
I finally
Break
Maybe that’s
What you’re
After
Leave me
Beaten
Broken
In pieces
Before you
Move on
Overthink
While you
Give it no
Thought at all
What was
Left of me
To give
Is
Now
Gone
Maybe never
To be found
I fell
For the
Promises
Of forever
When I should
Know
Forever doesn’t
Exist
They are
As empty
As the
Words
Spoken
I got
Stuck holding
The bag
Filled with
The years
Of sins
Committed
By another
Yet still
Expected
To atone
For them
So busy
Proving
You can do
What you
Want
That you forgot
I wasn’t
The one
Who had
Been holding
You down
All those
Years
Stuck
On making
Up for
Lost time
Going after
Some lost
Youth
Chasing some
Freedom
All of which
Had been locked
But I was never
Holding the key
But I sit
At home
Bearing the
Punishment
Of the sins
I did not
Commit
So you can
Shove it in
The face
Of the one
Who isn’t
Paying attention
I can’t beg
Anymore and
Not for some
Resemblance
Of pride
Because I no
Longer know
What that looks
Like but
Because I’m
Tired
Exhausted
A shell
A shell
Of a person
That loved you
That said
Forever
Forever and
A day
To the moon
And back
Without knowing
Forever isn’t
Very long and
The moon a short trip
And so
I will
Walk one way
While you
Run the other
I walk
Not ready
To leave you behind
While you
Run
Never a
Second thought I’m
Already a distant past
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