Dangerous Thoughts and Emotions

Let me say that no i am not in a bad place but this poem describes my train of thought when i am. A glimpse of the bad side of bipolar...

Destroyer of lives
Why my purpose?
Let me die
Punishment is life
Witness my destruction
Let me die
Forced to live
Don't want to breathe
Lungs fill anyway
Heart is dead
Was it ever alive?
Let me die
Still here

Burn everything
To the ground
Nothing left
But black
Yet i walk
Still wondering
Why
Am i still here?
Let me die
Forced to walk
One foot
Still going
In front of the other

I see no future
Only the past
And regretd
Pump thru
My veins
Sustaining life
Let me die
A life
Not worth living
Yet here
I am
Let me die
Still here