My girlfriend Julie came to me with an interesting idea and I'm really digging it. She, too, is a blogger and asked my permission to blog what it's like dating someone with bipolar. It's a no-brainer if you ask me...i said of course.
What i love is that she researches and researches bipolar. She listens to YouTube videos of people with bipolar, psychiatrists, etc so that she might gain a little more understanding of what I'm experiencing or going thru. She's ordered two books on bipolar. She asks me questions on if certain things pertain to me and how if yes or what is different if no.
The questions were hard at first for me to answer. I'm use to people asking out of morbid curiosity or as a way to hold it against me. I honestly felt like she didn't have a right to know at first because it's mine. But the more i realized she genuinely cared and wanted to know so that our relationship could A last and B be fulfilling for both of us, my responses came easier and easier.
It feels nice to have someone care so much that they are willing to learn everything about you but also scary as hell. It's nice to have someone understand yet stand their ground when i feel like being an asshole because I'm struggling with meds or the lows or I'm manic, self-medicating, disappearing whether physically or mentally. It's nice having the confidence that she's still going to be there helping me along the way. I've dealt with bipolar for over 20 years and I'm still learning but I've found someone that is willing to learn right along with me.
It's not every day that someone comes into your life and makes things better or makes you strive to be a better person. Some of you have been with me on this journey since my first blog and have seen my ups and downs. What i thought i wanted versus what I've needed. Trying to control every little detail of my life while losing complete control of everything. It feels good to be in a good place. It feels good to say that. It feels good to be me.
So go check out hellandbackwithstyle.blogspot.com and you can follow her personal journey and struggles along with us now as a couple and her perspective of dealing with my bipolar. We may eventually do a blog together but it's all baby steps at this point so stay tuned and I'll keep you posted. Now go read her blog.
I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully
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