So i ended up with a hernia and now i get to sit at home for over a month until i have surgery and heal. I'm not happy about it. At all. Not one bit.
My biggest struggle is going to be boredom as boredom in the past has led to drinking. It's a time and boredom killer for me. I can find any excuse to drink but being idle really doesn't help. Knowing this helps. Having a good support system helps. Being pro-active helps.
Not feeling productive leads to irritation and a bad attitude which leads to the temper i try so desperately to remain control over. I need to keep in mind this is no one's fault around me so don't take it out on them.
I'm not a patient person and I'm sure you find that hard to believe but I'm not. No really I'm not. At all. That's going to be another hard one for me. To be honest about my recovery and how I'm feeling instead of worrying about getting back to the grind. Yikes.
So I'm hoping knowing all these things that i can stay healthy in mind, body and spirit. That i can take one day at a time and let things fall into place. Not to try to control the situation and get back to 100%. I will if I'll allow it...hey i can control something in a positive way for once. I'm going to control my giving up control. Look at me turning into a big boy.
I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully
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