Dangerous Thoughts and Feelings-Poetry

The Rage of Storm

There's a storm in my heart
The raindrops fall down my face
Wind blowing memories across my mind
Clouds crowd my soul
It builds as it's rage tries to let loose
Clouding vision and thought
Obscuring anything but right now
Visibility of future is zero

I try to seek shelter from the storm
I fall to my knees begging to survive
Refusing to drown, I cry out instead
Take my hand, walk with me
Give me shelter
Give me peace
Give me forgiveness
Give, give, give-the storm rages on.

As I weather the storm
I'm trapped with me
Fear leads to control
Control leads to chaos
Chaos feeds the storm
The storm rages on
I must let go to live
I must look inside for peace

Alone I'm forced to deal
I fight, i won't say it
To speak it aloud makes it real
You can't have it
It's mine
My eyes are wide shut
Let this storm rage
I'm in control, I control, I am control

The storm rages on
My shelter battered and beaten
Don't look at me
You won't like what you see
Put the boards back
Hammer the nails deep
Please don't take this
I feel naked and raw

So exposed
The storm takes but did it give
Raindrops and rage pour down my face
The thundering of anguish
Energy spent
Lying on my back forced to look up
Never considered any direction but down Until now

I stare at the clouds
Full of anger and regret
Do they rage to ease the pain
Cry to release the pain
Unafraid to pour their emotions
Down upon me
Leading by example
Showing me the way

I realize i was wrong
Look with eyes clear
They rage for loss
Cry to mourn
Knowing I'm lost
Knowing i can't be saved
If by now i haven't changed
I never will

Allowed to look up once
So i can find truth
I turn my eyes downward
I understand this storm now
I embrace it like a lover
For this is the love i know
Time to go
And embrace the storm