Sunday, January 7, 2018

Hello...My Name is Bipolar #6

We went on a journey down memory lane yesterday of my first ever stay in a psych ward and we're going to keep on going with stay 2 and 3

Topeka was the place i stayed for the 2nd and 3rd stay. They have a nice facility and staff. It wasn't a bad place at all and between the two stays i think i was there for 10 days total.

What led me there was depression. I had cut on my legs to release and eventually i ended up in the bathroom at work, locked myself in refusing to come out until my dad and brother finally showed up and talked me out of the bathroom. I'm embarrassed for myself while writing this even though i shouldn't be so it just goes to show how paranoia and depression can impact a person.

I cut on my thighs because feeling pain is therapeutic to me when I'm feeling like this. My feeling of pain somehow releases the other. I'm that way when my temper is full steam ahead as well. It releases the anger. I have since learned other ways to cope such as removing myself from the situation, praying and counting just to name a few.

Inside we did group therapy, art therapy, individual therapy, gym time and met with a psychiatrist. It was amazing to me the extreme difference between this place and Cushing. I actually wanted to talk to the other patients and truth be told we did more for each other than any therapist or PHd could do. We knew where each other was coming from so we could give genuine sympathy and wanted to be an ear for each to talk to because all we ever want is understanding and above everything else that's what we could provide each other.

I use to be terribly embarrassed of the fact i had been to these psych wards but i finally realized they have helped shape into the person that is typing this blog right now along with other regrets and positives in my life. I like the guy typing right now. I can't remember the last time I've said that if ever and I'm sure he appreciates it.

I'm not bipolar-I have bipolar
R. M. Sully

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